Absent Minded Muser

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Have Faith.

on June 13, 2011

14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. “ Philippians 3:14.

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while, but I don’t know how many people really care…so, I’ll just keep posting because it’s what I want to do, and its better than therapy.

I had a nice long talk with my middle sister last night, and she told me she was worried about me. Worried about the guy I like and thinking I would do something crazy. Granted, I am pretty crazy and known to do insane things, but what she was suggestion…was waaaay too crazy for me. I may like the dude, but A) I can’t afford to get over there, and B) I don’t even know the guy. Sure I thought about ways to get in contact with him. But I was quickly shut down. No reason to worry Sis, I’m not dumb.

I suppose it was just nice to think that someone I liked could, maybe like me back. It was a dream, still is. But I can’t let if affect me anymore. And so what if I like him? Haven’t other people had crushes too? Please tell me I’m not the only one. [This is not a serious statement]

Anyway. I don’t need a guy, or I don’t even WANT a guy. My life is a mess as it is, and I’m trying hard to get it straightened out. It’s not easy. And through God I can do it, but I WISH people could have a little more faith. If you can’t have faith in me, at least have faith in God, that He will help change me. I want to be better, different. But that doesn’t mean my likes will change.

So have faith please. I’m tired of doubting myself. I’m tired of people doubting me. It’s time for me to take a stand, and if you want to stand, push yourself up. I’m standing right now, and I refuse to fall back down.

God has delivered me more times than I can count. And I pray, that someday, I will be able to work through Him to bring Him glory. It’s not easy, and I’m glad it’s not. I hate easy. Don’t you?

7 But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8 What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. 10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.” Philippians 3:7-11.



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